Lately I have been seeing a lot of people stating their one “word” for 2016. DREAM, GROW, TRAVEL – you know, all of the feel good words that make your spine tingle. Seeing these words posted made me think that maybe I should try it. I mean, it never hurts to do an exercise that will put a fire under your passions – even if it may be a temporary “new years” type thing to do. But when I sat down to come up with a word, MY word to encompass what I wanted to go after this year, something inside of me stopped me in my tracks.
DREAM – “You’re right. It’s just a dream. Most of that stuff will never happen to you”.
GROW – “That’s a good one – you definitely have a long way to go”.
TRAVEL – “Hey, remember how scared you are of flying? This will go well”.
Each time I tried to come up with a word to encompass my year, the nasty demons in my brain would use it against me.
So I decided that my word for 2016 is going to be FREE
No, I don’t mean FREE as in giving things away – although sometimes I do that. What I mean is FREE as in breaking free from my own self doubt. FREE as in no more talking bad about myself to myself. FREE as in allowing myself to be who I am – even though who I am is a little weird. But tell me – who here isn’t a little weird? We all have things that we think others are judging us for. How boring would it be to be normal anyways? Weirdo’s unite!
I’ve always heard that we ourselves are our own worst critics. Sometimes this is a good thing – like when we are trying to do something to the best of our abilities. Thinking critically of our work is healthy. It is when we start to think critically about ourselves in a personal manner – that’s when we have a problem.
Over the last few months these demons in my brain have done their best to make me think that I was worthless. There have been days when I’ve thought about shutting down my blog and giving up because I didn’t think I was good enough to compete. But do I really have to compete? No. Can’t I just be me and if you like it – great?
Over the last few months there have been things I’ve wanted to do, but I didn’t think I was “good enough” to try. Why? Trying is the first step of doing something new – isn’t it?
When I sit here and think about all the things I want to accomplish this year – to travel more, to make new friendships, to improve upon my work and to dress more glam – the only thing that could possibly hold me back from doing these things is me and my own self doubt. So guess what? I don’t want to let doubt steer my ship any longer.
2016 stands for freedom.
1 weird fact about me: I am nervous to try new foods because I always think that I might be allergic to them.
Join me in this freedom – What’s one weird fact about you? Share it with us in the comments.